Grow Up (Self Song)

Self (often stylized as sElf) is an American pop rock band formed in 1993 in Murfreesboro, Tennessee. The band is led by vocalist and multi-instrumentalist Matt Mahaffey, additionally consisting of keyboardist Chris James, bassist Mac Burrus, and drummer Jason Rawlings. Former members include guitarist Mike Mahaffey and touring bassist Tim Nobles. The group began as a duo on Spongebath Records with the Mahaffey brothers, immediately picked up by Zoo Entertainment to release their debut album, '' Subliminal Plastic Motives'' (1995). It sold over 40,000 copies in its first two years with support from the singles "Cannon" and " So Low". After expanding the lineup for live performances, the band embraced an experimental approach with '' The Half-Baked Serenade'' (1997), followed by a compilation of demos, '' Feels Like Breakin' Shit'' (1998).

The band signed with DreamWorks Records for their third album, releasing ''Breakfast with Girls'' (1999), which included lead single " Paint by Numbers". Originally receiving mixed reviews, it has retrospectively achieved critical acclaim despite its numerous production challenges and delays. Their fourth album, '' Gizmodgery'' (2000), was created entirely with toy instruments and featured the fan-favorite single " Trunk Fulla Amps". Self also contributed songs to film soundtracks, including "Stay Home" for ''Shrek'' (2001). The band's planned fifth album, '' Ornament & Crime'' (2003), was delayed and shelved due to DreamWorks' dissolution, only four months after releasing the album’s sole single “ Grow Up” in June.

Following the death of Mike Mahaffey in 2005, the band went on hiatus. Matt Mahaffey pursued solo projects, including Wired All Wrong, and continued producing music for other artists. While James worked with Prince, Rawlings played drums in Suburban Tragedy, and Burrus joined the ''Jimmy Kimmel Live!'' crew. Self reunited for the EP '' Super Fake Nice'' (2014), highlighted by the single "Runaway", and celebrated the twentieth anniversary of ''Subliminal Plastic Motives'' with a vinyl reissue and live performances. After years of stagnation, the band returned in 2024 with the single "Love You Less" and the holiday track "Merry Christmas, Santa".

History

1993–1996: Formation and ''Subliminal Plastic Motives''

Self was formed in 1993 in Murfreesboro, Tennessee by Matt Mahaffey. Simultaneously, his band Ella Minopy with Seth Timbs disbanded, and Spongebath Records was founded by the two and talent manager Richard Williams. Mahaffey began writing his debut album after encouragement from Williams, recruiting his brother Mike Mahaffey as a guitarist into Self for recording assistance. After a public performance in Nashville, Tennessee, he received and accepted a recording contract from Zoo Entertainment in March 1995. The label partnered with Spongebath to co-release albums for a year, distributing them through BMG.

Mahaffey finished the project in May 1995, releasing '' Subliminal Plastic Motives'' on October 24. The band's debut single "Cannon" supported it, followed by " So Low" in 1996. Jesse Peretz directed music videos for both songs, airing them on MTV. The album was commercially successful, with sales exceeding 40,000 units by 1997, and its singles receiving radio play. After release, Self recruited three more members for live performances: keyboardist Chris James, a college friend of Mahaffey; drummer Jason Rawlings, from the local band Brian Cuzies; and bassist Tim Nobles.

1997–1998: ''The Half-Baked Serenade'' and ''Feels Like Breakin' Shit''

After touring, Tim Nobles was removed from the band. In an interview with ''Silent Uproar'', Mahaffey stated that "it just wasn't working out". He additionally felt that his first album gave the band an inaccurate public image, reinforced by Mahaffey's discomfort with his extravagant new lifestyle. He declared Self to be "anti-rock", significantly reducing guitar usage and leaning into electropop instrumentation. He then began writing and recording a new album in his living room, releasing it as '' The Half-Baked Serenade'' on March 5, 1997. To further repel fame, it was distributed without any promotion, and sold exclusively through mail order via Spongebath.

Various scrapped songs and demos of the ''Subliminal Plastic Motives'' and ''The Half-Baked Serenade'' were saved by Mahaffey, later compiled into a disc titled '' Feels Like Breakin' Shit''. After sharing multiple copies with Spongebath personnel, it leaked online and became popular among fans. Self officially released it as a compilation album in 1998. During this time, the band was auditioning in search of a horn section and new bassist for concerts. They settled on Mac Burrus for the role, who visited Mahaffey's home after Self's second album was released.

1998–1999: ''Breakfast with Girls''

After their second album, Self received an offer for and accepted a recording contract from DreamWorks Records. Their significantly higher budget led the band to collaborate with acclaimed musicians, including Ken Andrews of Failure, Richard Dodd, and Hugh Padgham. Recording occurred in multiple professional studios, and Mahaffey could experiment more with production. Multiple issues occurred during this process, such as file corruption, disagreements over singles for the album, and numerous delays in the release date. First announced to release on August 25, 1998, ''Breakfast with Girls'' was finally released via DreamWorks and Spongebath on July 13, 1999.

As consolation for the delays, the EP ''Brunch'' was given to customers who pre-ordered the album, featuring scrapped songs. " Paint by Numbers" was released as the first single of ''Breakfast with Girls'' on July 21, 1998, as part of the soundtrack for the 1998 film ''Dead Man on Campus''. It was nominated for Song of the Year at the 1999 Nashville Music Association Awards. Another single for the album, "Meg Ryan", received airplay as the album's radio single. On August 4, 1998, the band released a cover version of Depeche Mode's "Shame" as part of the tribute album ''For the Masses''.

1999–2001: ''Gizmodgery'' and B-side releases

While spending weekdays working on ''Breakfast with Girls'', Mahaffey began producing a fourth studio album on his weekends. Originally conceived as an idea in 1995, he was inspired by the Pianosaurus album ''Groovy Neighborhood'' (1987) to create an album entirely with toy instruments. To achieve the desired sound, Mahaffey extensively used Pro Tools to equalize and fix the audio's abundant mid-range frequencies. '' Gizmodgery'' released through Spongebath on September 5, 2000, as an HDCD. The album's sole single, " Trunk Fulla Amps", has been commonly cited as a fan favorite. A music video for it was published in February 2001 as part of MTV's "Indie Day", but wasn't aired due to Self's DreamWorks connection. ''Gizmodgery'' sold 10,000 units in its first week, garnering praise for its unique production and playful energy.

Retrospectively, Todd Olmstead of ''Vice'' described ''Gizmodgery'' as Self's best-known album. Its songs "Dead Man" and "What a Fool Believes" have since resurged in popularity on Spotify as the band's most popular songs. The band's second EP, '' Self Goes Shopping'', consists of instrumental remixes of six Self songs. It was planned for DreamWorks distribution, but released through Spongebath on December 16, 2000. The EP was followed by Self's second compilation album, ''Selfafornia''. Spongebath Intermittently released it through mid-2001, with its final set of songs released on July 27, 2001. The compilation features scrapped songs and demos from the writing sessions of ''Gizmodgery'' and includes "Resurrect", the Japanese bonus track of the toy album.

2001–2005: Film songs and ''Ornament & Crime''

The band contributed the song "Stay Home" to the 2001 animated fantasy comedy film ''Shrek''. Originally composed for its opening sequence, it was moved to the end credits in favor of Smash Mouth's "All Star", but still opens the soundtrack album. This was followed by the song "Out with a Bang" appearing in the 2001 sci-fi comedy film ''Evolution'', a track that would later appear on Self's fifth studio album. They began recording it in 2002, planning to return to the rock styling of the band's debut. Self released the single “ Grow Up” in June 2003, which would end up being the albums sole single. On November 10, 2003, '' Ornament & Crime'' was completed. Before the album could be released, DreamWorks Records was bought and dissolved by Universal Music Group, who left the album indefinitely unreleased.

For the 2004 teen sex comedy film '' EuroTrip'', Self was asked to create the song "Scotty Doesn't Know". After being presented with its subject and characters, Mahaffey quickly wrote it and sent it to the film's producers, who generally enjoyed it. However, when they tasked the band Lustra with the same style of song, their result was favored. Additionally, when Mahaffey was offered work for the 2004 film ''Shrek 2'', they wrote "This is Love" and covered the Archies' song "Sugar, Sugar", but were not featured. In 2005, Self released their third compilation album, '' Porno, Mint & Grime''. It consists of scrapped songs and demos from ''Ornament & Crime'', including "This is Love".

2005–2006: Unreleased DVD and side projects

A live video album, intended to be released on home video formats, remains unreleased. Recorded in 2005 at Spaceland, the performance includes a cover of AC/DC's song "Back in Black". Several videos of songs from the DVD, including the "Back in Black" cover, have been posted online on Mahaffey's MySpace and YouTube profiles. The band went on hiatus after lead guitarist Mike Mahaffey died, with a show played in his honor on October 9, 2005.

Matt Mahaffey continued performing as Self while on hiatus but without other band members, who began working on other projects. Rawlings played drums in a group called Suburban Tragedy, and Mahaffey also formed a new band, Wired All Wrong, with former God Lives Underwater member Jeff Turzo. Wired All Wrong released their first album, '' Break Out The Battle Tapes'' on September 12, 2006. Additionally, Mahaffey has worked as a producer and performer for other artists including Beck and Hellogoodbye and as a composer for children's TV shows including Nickelodeon's Ni Hao, Kai-Lan.

2007–2014: ''Super Fake Nice''

A project titled '' Super Fake Nice'' was announced in 2007, initially slated to be the band's sixth album. Two songs from its recording sessions were published in 2009: "Orchid" and "Monogamy". On July 8, 2008, the band released a cover of "Ana Ng" for the They Might Be Giants tribute album ''Hello Radio: The Songs of They Might Be Giants''. On May 10, 2010, Self released the single "Could You Love Me Now?" alongside a music video, followed by the track "Looks and Money" on November 28, 2011. In January 2012, Mahaffey finished building a home studio in Franklin, Tennessee, and began writing and recording more songs. Later in the year, Self began working with El Camino Media, an independent label they would later sign to for the project's distribution.

For his album ''Lasers'', Lupe Fiasco featured Self on the song "State Run Radio", releasing it on March 7, 2011. A sold-out reunion show at Exit/In in Nashville was played on December 29, 2012, with Fluid Ounces guitarist Brian Rogers filling Mike Mahaffey's position. Self contributed the song "Stranger than Strange" to the compilation ''Songs for Blake - Embracing Autism'' on May 13, 2014. On July 11, "Runaway" was released as a single for ''Super Fake Nice'', now classed as the band's third EP. It additionally received a music video, which placed at number ten on ''Rolling Stone''s top 20 music videos of 2014. The EP was released on July 29, followed by Self's TV debut on ''Jimmy Kimmel Live!'' the next day.

2014–present: Re-issues and singles

In January 2014, ''Subliminal Plastic Motives'' was re-issued through Fat Possum Records, on vinyl for the first time. Celebrating its twentieth anniversary, the band performed the entire album at Gramercy Theater in New York City on January 10. For Record Store Day 2015, "Monogamy" and "Could You Love Me Now?" were bundled together and released as a 7-inch vinyl on April 18.
Later in the year on September 11, El Camino Media re-issued Gizmodgery for its fifteenth anniversary, on vinyl for the first time. The label additionally released ''Ornament & Crime'' on August 25, 2017, being its first official issue after thirteen years since completion.

Since 2017, music from Self has been stagnant; in 2022, Matt announced via his Instagram account that he was making new Self music for the first time in nearly 10 years. The band released the single "Love You Less" on November 6, 2024. On November 29, 2024, he contributed the song "Merry Christmas, Santa" under the pseudonym Elfs to the album ''Christmas in Space'' by Cake in Space, a composer collective by Mahaffey.

Discography

Studio albums
* '' Subliminal Plastic Motives'' (1995)
* '' The Half-Baked Serenade'' (1997)
* ''Breakfast with Girls'' (1999)
* '' Gizmodgery'' (2000)
* '' Ornament & Crime'' (2017)

Band members

Current members
* Matt Mahaffey – lead vocals, lead guitar, bass guitar, keyboards, drums
* Chris James – keyboards, mixing
* Jason Rawlings – drums
* Mac Burrus – bass guitar

Current touring musicians
* Brian Rogers – guitar, backing vocals

Former members
* Mike Mahaffey – backing vocals, lead guitar
* Tim Nobles – bass guitar

Former touring musicians
* Seth Timbs – bass, keyboards, backing vocals
* Swan Burrus - backing vocals, percussion

Timeline

References

External links

* Allmusic - Self biography
Matt Mahaffey / Self MySpace page

Self's discography at the Discogs database